Christmas is a distant speck in my rear-view mirror, and we are already most of a month into 2012. I wouldn’t really say I have any “resolutions” for the New Year, but I do have some goals. It is odd how the completely arbitrary change over of a calendar causes me to re-examine my life, but I will take advantage of it. It is time to give some thought to what I want to focus on in the next year.
Things I intend to do in 2012
- Spend 25% less money: 2010 and 2011 were incredibly expensive years for Irene and I. It wasn’t all just big things like motorbikes and new roofs, either. I have to stop treating my depression with expenditure: both Irene and I want to at least have the option of retiring before 65, and unless we decrease our current burn rate significantly, Freedom 95 starts to look optimistic. It is important to note that I don’t say “spend no money”- Irene and I want to still enjoy our lives. Interestingly, I said something very similar last New Years, but this time I’m going to make it stick
- Get lots of motorcycle riding in: I had a ton of fun and experienced a fair amount of personal growth as a result of my motorcycle rides last year. During 2011, I put nearly 24,000 km on my motorbike. I intend to keep that up: not necessarily the same mileage, but lots of trips. However, I’ll be looking for ways to minimize what my longer rides cost- I’ll probably be buying a tent and a sleeping bag, for example, and stopping in campgrounds instead of hotels at least part of the time
- Be prepared for unpleasant work changes: My career is jeopardy. My employer doesn’t have much room for technologists who don’t want to travel 50% of their time, and even less for technologists from North America who make substantially more than their Indian counterparts. I don’t expect my job to be the same, or possibly even exist, within the next year. Irene and I need to be ready for a substantial reduction in our circumstances
- Find ways to be more at peace: I might lose my job, or reach the point where I can’t tolerate staying. If that happens, Irene and I will have to give up a great deal, most likely including our house. And that’s just the “small” stuff- life is happening all around, and much of it isn’t pleasant. The problem isn’t all of this “stuff” that is happening- the problem is that I dwell too much on eventualities I can’t be certain of and frankly have little to no control over, and not enough on the good fortune I have already
- Write regularly in my personal journal: I’ve found over the last few years that problems, aggravations, and worries lose their power when I write them down in my journal. The process of writing the thoughts down causes me to formalize my concerns, and it put problems in a different perspective. And maybe writing things down forms a kind of “resolution” or closure, allowing me to put some issues to rest that otherwise reside perpetually in my mind. I usually write regularly for a couple of months, then get out of the habit, picking it up again months or years later. I will do better this year
- Keep on struggling with my weight: I’d like to find a healthy balance of sorts, but I definitely haven’t yet. I managed to get my weight down to about 180 pounds by May of 2011. By August, I was over 190. As of January 2012, I am 200 pounds: 10 pounds heavier than New Years of 2011. I know why: I don’t like exercise, and I eat for comfort. l don’t expect any great changes this year, but I don’t want to give up the fight
I’d also like to say that I’ll communicate more with my friends and family, or that I’ll spend some time making new friends and acquaintances: such thoughts are inspiring, but I know they are a struggle against the deepest parts of my nature. I need to pick my battles: that’s what the list above is intended to document.